Last Unmarried Blog Update!

All of me loves all of you

This will officially be my last post as an unmarried woman (what? ahhhhh!).  The wedding is on Sunday, in 2 days and this week has blown by.  I mean, I guess that’s obvious, but seriously. Fortunately, I am not a hectic whirlwind of a girl; I am doing super well and am really calm and chill. All of the big decisions have been made and all the little things to worry about have been delegated.  All I have to worry about is moving all my things to L’s apartment, which is still pretty inconvenient because of how far he lives from me. My room looks like a tornado ran through it due to my cleaning/sorting/packing, but it has to get worse before it gets better, I guess.

Currently, my sister and I are curled up on the couch in front of a lovely fire in the fire place, perfecting the details of the ceremony programs and talking about our feelings in regards to varying fonts and I’m really happy. Tomorrow is full of really boring errands and then picking up some of my favorite ladies at the airport. From that point on, I get my best friend that I never get to see with me 24/7 and it’s going to be heavenly. I’m so excited!

I know I’ve done Wednesday Things for the majority of this past semester, but this lovely lady does a variation of that for posting updates on her blog, which she titles “Currently” and describes her current feelings and thoughts, etc. I think it’s a great idea, and I’m going to start doing them myself. =]  So, here we go…

Currently…

Loving… moving! Namely, finally going through all my crap and paring down all my belongings. Seriously, I own way too much.

Thinking about all my last-minute little errands, phone calls, and things to finish up in the (zero) time I have left until the ceremony.

Reading… Ready Player One by Earnest Cline. If you’ve followed my blog for a while, you probably know that I absolutely love audio books. 50% of my time is (unfortunately) spent driving in my car and thanks to audio books, I’ve gone through up to five or six books in one month! I anticipate that this will change after I get back from the wedding because I won’t have a school, job, or boyfriend’s house to drive to (hurray for working online!). I’m looking forward to this, because I think I’ll actually be able to get through the tons of physical books I own that I have yet to read. (Bonus: the audio version of Ready Player One is read by Whil Wheaton!)

Watching… youtube. Honestly, I’ve just been going through Rooster Teeth and Achievement Hunter videos because all of the shows I’m behind on are ones I watch with L, and we just haven’t seen enough of each other in, like, ever to actually stay up to date on all of them. So, when I’m at my place and/or just by myself, I just watch their episodes on YouTube.

Anticipating…  my wedding. Duh. AND seeing my lovely lady friends who are coming into town to stand up next to me for my big day! Also, I recently realized a wonderful thing that I am very excited for: on the day of, I have no time schedule to which I must conform. Aside from making sure that I’m happily hidden away once people actually start arriving, the entire day does not happen without me or my say-so. Literally. This is the ONE day in my life that I get when this happens. This has also been one of the most comforting things for me.

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These might be for you.

My personal notes to a potential suitor:

#1: Music is a huge part of my life. I will introduce you to my favorite artists. And I will be looking for some indication of what you think. If you love it, let me know. If you don’t, tell me why.

#2: Please dance with me. =] Goofily(?) and all other kinds of dancing. Don’t worry, I suck at it, too.

#3: A lack of respect towards me is a deal-breaker. No excuses.

#4: It’d be totally awesome if you would be all about holidays with me. Including National Get Over It Day. (March 9th)

#5: Please let me vent. And, if you disagree with me, please let me finish ranting before you say that you can see the other side. If you make an argument for the opposite side while I’m ranting, it’ll probably just start a fight.

#6: Please, please don’t close off. Especially during an argument. Let’s always talk, okay?

#7: Do not text me 24/7. Everyday? Sure, I’m down with that. But let me get to sleep at a reasonable hour. Let me go to school. And don’t freak if it takes me a little while to respond. I have a life.

#8: Be okay with no PDA. Holding hands is fine, but let’s not ever be attatched at the hip.

#9: Honesty is an absolute must. It’s a core value for me, so I hope it is for you, too. Don’t be the type to just tell me what you think I want to hear.

#10: Yes, I probably would prefer to buy the book as opposed to borrowing it from the library.

#11: Please don’t be one of those people who freak out about their picture being taken. I think you’re cute. And bad pictures happen to even the best of us. A picture is only embarrassing if you choose to be embarrassed by it. And you are not any picture of you. If necessary, and in those situations where you really don’t want your picture taken (I have those, too), please be mature about it and respond by saying something like, “honey, please not today. We’ll get pictures together some other time, okay?” as opposed to freaking out. Or you could suggest a compromise: Let me take a couple pictures in return for letting you pick the next movie we watch or having me pay for dinner sometime.

#12: On that note, if a compromise is to be made, let’s specify at the moment it is being suggested what the conditions are for each party. Don’t hold it over my head that I owe you something.

#13: One word: HYGIENE!

#14: Please don’t ever feed me. It’s so awkward. For me and everyone else.

#15: Drive me places, but I’d like to drive sometimes, too.

#16: I can pretty much guaruntee that I’ll try to imitate the way you talk. I do that. Please find amusement in it and don’t get offended. I don’t do it to mock you; I love linguistics.

#17: Please, no buzz-cuts.  Have hair.

#18: Please be a fellow musician. But if you are, don’t be critical or try to give me lessons unless I ask you for it.

#19: Be a real man – Love God.

#20: I would absolutely love it if you made “your face” jokes with me. =]  And if you remember that I like Chuck Norris jokes.

#21: If you interacct well with kids, I’ll melt.  =]

 

 

 (inspired by this)

Everything is easier in theory.

In English, we just finished reading Beloved by Toni Morrison (phenominal book). In it, there is a stream-of-consciousness section.  Every week, we have to do two journal entries: One assigned, one that we choose. Today, we wrote our own streams-of-consciousness for our assigned journal entry. 

After I got through the initial I’m-writing-with-a-blue-green-pen-because-my-purple-one-won’t-work-right thoughts, I ended up on one core idea. Because it’s in stream-of-consciousness, the grammar and punctuation are not correct.  That’s how it’s supposed to be. Here’s that part of my writing – right off the paper:

 

 

I love people. The hardest thing about people is when you have to hurt them. How do you comprimise your not wanting to hurt them with your I need to hurt them? How do you take not hurting them and the amuont you need to and take the average? When you have to tell some one something but it hurts or when you have to do something but it hurts. How has the human race lived through life? I mean, how have people not just decided to stop living? and i don’t mean suicide, I’d never, ever do that. I mean going numb or deciding other people are too much to deal with? Do things end up worth everything it takes, eventually? Everything is so much easier in theory. You say oh, I’d do this in situation X, but wwhen situation x actually happens, it starts looking and feeling like the quadratic equation. Is there a math problem that you can use to figure out what to do? Plug in the result you want for Y, plug in who your action and decision will effect for X and Z, plug in the outcome you absolutely DO NOT want as Q, plug your heart into the equation and solve it. Or would that mathmatic equation take the worth and purpose out of life? Take the trial and error and learning out of life? If we had a math problem to make our choices for us, would we stop thinking? stop feeling? stop valuing other people and start viewing them as mere variables?

 

 

 

Toni Morrison’s “Beloved”

 

This is a phenominal book.  Albeit very confusing the first read. Beloved is one of those books that you have to read the first time through utterly confused and lost, then the necessary second time through, you think, “Why on earth did this make absolutely no sense before?”  The third read is even better.

Beloved requires a lot of speculation and attention. It’s not a bedtime story. It does contain some adult themes, but that’s only natural – it’s a story about slavery.

“When slavery has torn apart one’s heritage, when the past is more real than the present, when the rage of a dead baby can literally rock a house, then the traditional novel is no longer an adequate instrument. And so Pulitzer Prize-winner Beloved is written in bits and images, smashed like a mirror on the floor and left for the reader to put together. In a novel that is hypnotic, beautiful, and elusive, Toni Morrison portrays the lives of Sethe, an escaped slave and mother, and those around her. There is Sixo, who “stopped speaking English because there was no future in it,” and …. Baby Suggs, who makes her living with her heart because slavery “had busted her legs, back, head, eyes, hands, kidneys, womb and tongue;” and Paul D, a man with a rusted metal box for a heart and a presence that allows women to cry. At the center is Sethe, whose story makes us think and think again about what we mean when we say we love our children or freedom. The stories circle, swim dreamily to the surface, and are suddenly clear and horrifying. Because of the extraordinary, experimental style as well as the intensity of the subject matter, what we learn from them touches at a level deeper than understanding.”  (http://www.luminarium.org/contemporary/tonimorrison/beloved.htm)

The Stream-of-consciousness section is even more baffling than te rest of the book. But if you read it with the Middle Passage in mind, it helps a lot. 

I highly reccomend this book. If any of you read it and have questions (which I know you WILL), I’ll be happy to help you understand it! Email me at shutterbug926 [at] gmail [dot] com. I love this book. I adore it.  I wrote ALL over my copy, highlighted, speculations in the margins, everything.  =]